R.I.P. Ben

I found out yesterday that you were gone. My body just went limp. I cried all day long till I went to bed even with no tears left. Everybody is thinkin' of you and how much you made everyone laugh. I know that you thougt this was the way to go... but kid(i know you hate it when I call you that!), i know your were stronger then that. You made our V-Day night @ work awesome...you made me a valintine and everything! Even without this whole thing, you are unforgetable! Your mom and dad miss you soo much, I showed them the picture we took together. Ben, if things were so bad, I wish you would have talked to someone. I want to be mad cuz I won't be able to talk to you any more... but this is the way you wanted it. If I somehow knew about a week and 1/2 before...I would have went with you to hang out with Anthony and all your freinds. They were there for you all day! They knew you soo well, why didn't they see this comming? Were you mad @ someone? Did you feel that this was the only way out? I just want you to know that I'm thinkin' about you and hope that your in a happier place!! \

I love ya kid!!

Without Pain there is no Happiness

Without Doubt there is no Hope

Without Death there is no Life

This is how big I felt...small and helpless

Self-Spoken

Wow, i think this is the 1st time in awhile that i updated 2 days in a row!! Well let me start this off by saying that last night was AWESOME!! I love you all who were out there, it was a blast! Yes, i did fall on my ass @ crossroads...I was soo excited to see Angie that i ran around the front of Brent's Truck and fell! And of course there was a guy in the truck that must of seen me fall...did i feel stupid! Be stong today Angie, love ya! Umm... let's see..i would say everythign that happend last night, but there was WAY too much, so i think that it's just gunna be one of those things where your just gunna have to hear it from me when i talk about it! Em, i need to talk to you..HAHA! I have play practice today @ 1:00pm till 4:00pm....but that's a god thing so i'm not sittin' here till tonight doin' nothing! Then I'ma come home and get ready and head out to where the party is tonight! OH!! I totally forgot...if you wanna see pics from last night...go to my facebook>>http://hs.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1182990075 then go under my profile picture to "View More Photos of Me" and there is all the ones from last night that i have...Kruzer has them all! And a big thanks goes to you Kruzer for the pictures and the great talks!! I IWLL call ya tonight! Well i think ima go post this and look at some more! love!   -J